"You're alone up there."
"Your angry."
"You need a change of pace."
Such were the words uttered to me by a relative that that I've become reacquainted with. He is one of the very few who can soundly be regarded as a "friendly."
I sit here in my small apartment restless and uncertain....waiting for the other shoe to drop but not sure if there is another shoe. There are feelings of being rudderless and then there are feelings of shock and horror as one wonders where all the time has gone and how much of it is left.
Wasn't I supposed to be further along? Wasn't I to have it all figured out? Would I be happier someplace else or is happiness not the product of the environment you're in but the state of one's mind? I have a feeling it's a little bit of both.
Would dropping it all and embracing the sun and fun of West Palm Beach, Florida melt the ice or bring it's own new chill amidst the stifling heat and humidity?
I am a product of the busy fast paced world of the north eastern United States. The congestion, aggression and fast paced nature of this place is debilitating and invigorating. I can't describe it any better. You just have to be here to understand.
I've always wanted to make a break for it. Drop it all and go someplace new. Another country even. There's not much holding me down really, but I don't think the fun and sun of Florida is for me. I never cared for weather that was too hot and I despise humidity. I also don't care to get nipped by gators which roam free in land of Disney World. Although such an incident would be rare. It's more or less of an excuse.
I guess what this recent discussion has done is spark my desire to tear it all down and build it back up elsewhere.....far from here. A place where new adventures, romances and opportunities await. A place where anything can happen. I need to go to this place. But not Florida. Maybe a vacation there is in order. But it's not the "new home."
Have you ever wanted to run of after just getting fed up with it all? Do you feel that it's running away from the problems or solving them? If you wanted to make a break for it, where would you go?
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