Comments on U N L O A D E D: No, I am NOT a Student!

and here I am WISHING I was still a student!

2010-03-02T05:30:04.687-05:00

and here I am WISHING I was still a student!

well the key is to not indulge in avoidance behavi...

2009-12-17T08:26:28.870-05:00

well the key is to not indulge in avoidance behavior. You have to force yourself out into the world and notlet the disorder run your life. Take the hit and let the attack happen. It is a form of exposure therapy that I have been using over the last year and slowly I've been going back to my old self. The crazy thing about disorder is not fear of people or things but the fear that you will have an attack in a crowded place or at a critical moment. So this leads to be becoming withdrawn. Obviously it is not as bad as it was or I couldn't act but you'd be shocked at how many actors have it. Hugh grant may be forced into retirement because of it. But yes, maybe indio would be a good place for kicking it. There was actually a point where I could pop xanax like candy and it still wouldn't work. Glad to be out of that spot. But there is still work to do. Yes, India!

No wuckas, mate. Most of the 'westerner' parts in ...

2009-12-17T07:53:38.617-05:00

No wuckas, mate. Most of the 'westerner' parts in Bollywood are non-singing roles, more like standing around look attractive for the Indian heroine of the story so you'd have not trouble with that.

It's the overcrowded neature of an Indian town or city that can be overwhelming and also the convoluted and confusing nature of doing usually straightforward things: it's mainly a language barrier but as everyone speaks fluent English, the cultural barrier sets in. So once you let your Indian friends or guide get things organised, it's the most exquisite and astonishing country: lots of fun, rollicking good times and generosity of spirit, apart from the bakshish. In some ways, traveling in India would really put your troubling old panic syndrome to the test. Plus, once you get to the beaches of Goa or the mountains of the Himalayas, the oldest inhabited towns of the world have a mystique and a calm of their own.

I can't sing Mitzzi. Musicals annoy me. I just c...

2009-12-17T02:17:14.593-05:00

I can't sing Mitzzi. Musicals annoy me. I just couldn't do it.

Would the overcrowding cause the attacks? what s it about India that would set me into an attack? I don't know.

I do know that at one time, long ago, I could not handle trains or crowded places where I felt stuck. It's not a life long thing but something that happened when I began to suffer from the attacks a few years back. I am MUCH better than say 3 years ago when I landed in the hospital.

Ricardo I never thought I'd say this with a straig...

2009-12-13T06:34:45.429-05:00

Ricardo I never thought I'd say this with a straight face but you and panics would enjoy a holiday in India - it will make it worse for a few days, and then you will enter into the chilled swami spirit: you could probably get some interesting roles in Bollywood while you're there!

Dawn I don't think so. and unless I have a good d...

2009-12-09T11:08:57.536-05:00

Dawn I don't think so. and unless I have a good dose of sedatives, I'm never relaxed.

I am a full time student... but I guess that's not...

2009-12-09T10:43:03.284-05:00

I am a full time student... but I guess that's not the same as young and relaxed is it?

Speedcat - Rasputin? HA!!! Is it the beard!?!?! ...

2009-12-08T19:55:14.267-05:00

Speedcat - Rasputin? HA!!!

Is it the beard!?!?! I don't mind being called sir....yet.

Tom - Tom I would have NEVER put you in that age bracket. I don't sense AARP at all in you. Yes, I bet the mailman has been thrown for a loop, but what joy that is also.

Age is just a number. It's amusing when people se...

2009-12-08T19:26:07.459-05:00

Age is just a number. It's amusing when people seem to be part of several demographic groups at the same time.

I'm a member of AARP (yes I'm THAT old). I get their publications in the mail, plus several music magazines and several fitness newsletters. I always wonder what the mailman thinks when he sees "Develop Devastating Striking Power With These Badass Exercises!" and "For the comfort of your twilight years" and Spin Magazine -- all addressed to the same person.

Younger women call me "sir" ... that's un-nerving!...

2009-12-08T19:09:21.622-05:00

Younger women call me "sir" ... that's un-nerving!
Someone at Facebook said I look like Rasputin

(( ahhhhhhhhhh!!! ))

Maya - Staying in school is hiding. Welcome to th...

2009-12-08T14:35:28.067-05:00

Maya - Staying in school is hiding. Welcome to the battlefield of earth. LOL! fun isn't it? But I now what you mean.

You certainly can blog!!

Devin - Hold on, 300 partners?!?!?! You should have another blog called the man loves of Devin for heavens sake you're like Wilt Chamberlain without the girls. LOL! I'd be happy going to the grave with a solid 50 women under my belt. I don't think I will ever top you.

You may blabber all you like here my friend.

Youth is a fleeting ting but as men, we don;t get old. Only more distinguished.

I have always been mistaken for a younger person-s...

2009-12-08T08:35:58.618-05:00

I have always been mistaken for a younger person-sometimes up to ten years for some reason-it's weird to because I have done everything wrong in life -altho I have stopped it now haha-I drank too much actually starting in class in high school-smoked up to a pack and a half a day for a long time-started when i was 12-but didn't really get going on it til my 20s(quit now)
then the sex-i think i have had umm -over 300 partners i guess youd call them-one night stands more like it (quit now too-altho not sure it is a "good thing" in some ways-I really really miss Nando-even tho he was a god-awful lover)-those days are starting to end when people would automatically say- "o you can't be that old-let me see your driver's license" and stuff like that
my poor brother is two years younger than me (42) and has a lot of gray hair and I dont have any -and so on-sorry to go on and on!
I am on one of those insomnia things again-and I babble at the best of times! but I think they think you are a student because you are smart -and that is one thing no one has ever said to me haha-"hey what school do you go to?" but that is good Ricardo-I would take it as a compliment anyway if I were you.
believe me-the young looks thing is meaningless-well for me it is -starting around 35-when my libido started going to zero!
all the best to you and I hope you have a great day and week-I will try to get caught up here more really soon-unless you don't want me cause of my "blabbiness":-)

I have gone nuts! But is this really news to you?...

2009-12-08T02:48:14.917-05:00

I have gone nuts! But is this really news to you? :) I think it might have picked up my blog that way: http://blog.mayaescobar.com maybe the comment section read it as "blog", whatever... I can be "blog" I am okay with that as long as I can go back to school.

"Some may take it as a form of flattery." hell ye...

2009-12-07T23:37:51.344-05:00

"Some may take it as a form of flattery."

hell yes, I wish someone would confuse me with being young enough to BE a student!

Nurse, channeling to pick up the younger lads are ...

2009-12-07T21:33:45.025-05:00

Nurse, channeling to pick up the younger lads are you?

Mitzi - Will aging really help me with the acting biz? I don't think it would but since you desire it, OK.

SJ - We are students yes. Good point. I certainly never saw you as looking older.

Maya- Why are you listing your name as blog? Have you gone nuts? :-)

No, there are limits to being a student. after awhile people will thinking you have been institutionalized. Like prisoners who can't live out of prison.

Libby - Actually, it did show in my face when I had the old job. Many people here remarked on it in my video updates. I looked very tired and jaundiced. It was very noticeable.

STG - Points to you!!! I do carry a backpack on the days I am acting and heading to NYC but it's a nice backpack. Not student like. But a very keen observation that I did not consider.

I think once college girls sat down and talked to me they would be put off by me being old but that's just my hunch. It would have to be a night of drunken debauchery.

Thomas - OK, are you working on a shoot? Let me know because we must drink mead!!

Ily- I'm never relaxed,I got panic disorder. LOL! But I hear you. I am in much better shape now than in my 20s. some argue that I look better now. I don't know. We need to see young Ily and older vivacious Ily to make a ruling.

X.dell - I think it's safe to say I am at that point and if not, very soon. I like your opening style.

i agree with leah, you probably have the hungry lo...

2009-12-07T21:20:51.025-05:00

i agree with leah, you probably have the hungry look in your eyes that says "ok, here i come world!"...plus when you had your old job, i'm willing to bet that the stress itself showed on your face.

and here I am WISHING I was still a student!

2009-12-07T20:43:07.480-05:00

and here I am WISHING I was still a student!

Way back during my teaching days, somtimes, on the...

2009-12-07T18:38:05.916-05:00

Way back during my teaching days, somtimes, on the first day of class, I'd take a seat with the students while waiting for the class to start. When the bell rung, I'd just go to the head of the class and start teaching. Some of the students thought I was kidding, until I started calling the roll.

The day that I no longer fooled anyone (about your age now, actually), was the day I knew I had ceased to be a young man.

Maybe it's the more relaxed look that makes you lo...

2009-12-07T17:00:22.374-05:00

Maybe it's the more relaxed look that makes you look so young. I hear I look better now than I did in my early 30s...and I think it's because I was SO stressed back then! I sweat the small stuff and just about everything really, but not anymore. :)

Congrats! It does leave wide open the age range yo...

2009-12-07T14:18:51.696-05:00

Congrats! It does leave wide open the age range you may attempt to seduce... I always love to have a wide range of options - have fun with that!

Or maybe it's time you stopped carrying around that ripped up backpack... ;)

stg

First, embrace your inner dirty old man. Second, ...

2009-12-07T13:35:15.520-05:00

First, embrace your inner dirty old man.

Second, I get this also, though it's more that every job I walk onto people assume that I'm new at the job despite being vastly more experienced than two thirds of the people in the room.

Also, will be in NYC the first few days of January. We get beers.

It might be because there are a lot of returning s...

2009-12-07T09:28:45.609-05:00

It might be because there are a lot of returning students who want to finish their education later in life. I didn't get my degree until I was 33.

Just be thankful that they don't report you to security as a possible terrorist rapist.

It must be because you have that hunger & ambition...

2009-12-07T09:24:42.403-05:00

It must be because you have that hunger & ambition in your eye that sees life as a possibility & not the dull stare of a midlife, 9-5er, dead end job/life...

just my opinon!

Hurry up and age, I have a DOM fetish. Ew, stude...

2009-12-07T08:46:49.550-05:00

Hurry up and age, I have a DOM fetish.

Ew, students. Ptooi.

LOL... a very curious case indeed, being mistaken ...

2009-12-07T04:50:21.005-05:00

LOL... a very curious case indeed, being mistaken for a student. I don't get mistaken for a student, but people tend to take off anywhere between 5 to 10 years of my actual age. I find it very flattering indeed, but of course there are some negative aspects to that.