Comments on U N L O A D E D: What the Hell am I Doing!?!?!?

I think if you have a great dream, you must not gi...

2010-03-02T07:00:04.025-05:00

I think if you have a great dream, you must not give up. The emotional cost alone is not worth it. Somehow I don't see you as a pusher of cellphones and fancy leather cases. There is alot to be said for sitting on your couch in your underwear, happy, vs. decked out in slick outfit selling crap. Keep on perservering...

I had fun reading your post but I am also thinking...

2010-03-02T05:30:23.323-05:00

I had fun reading your post but I am also thinking that you should not spend your life that way. There are better things and all you have to do is to find it and start believing to achieve your dreams. Goodluck!

Watch the video in my blog.

Nope you're right. In addressing your comments at...

2009-11-29T01:26:44.882-05:00

Nope you're right. In addressing your comments at a latter time I forgot that she too was in sort of the same spot as me and left a comment here.

No do not stay home, that will make it only worse. Socialize. You seem like a very fun person. Why not get out there?

Hmm, the Lori I was referring to was the Lori who ...

2009-11-28T21:14:25.884-05:00

Hmm, the Lori I was referring to was the Lori who wrote she was a waitress? And you are her? I am confused. You perhaps have a split personality? Or multiple personalities? that could be fun.

I used to call people who sucked the energy out of me, 'energy vampires'. You'd go out for a meal or to a big party and they'd sit around all night, not socializing with people and if you hung out with them all night, they'd drag you down to their energy level.

Sometimes I worry that I'm one of them... I usually stay home then.

stg

Jill - Oh if only it were that simple. LOL! STG ...

2009-11-28T08:19:20.644-05:00

Jill - Oh if only it were that simple. LOL!

STG - Ricardo and Lori are one in the same as I am Ricardo Lori ;-)

Not a line on Nurse Jackie but just something I came up with.

The show runs on premium cable here in the US. Depending on where you are, it may not.

and yes you are right, the fake in people is a vampire.

"psycho doctor ram a hot catheter up my dick" ? ...

2009-11-25T01:13:26.221-05:00

"psycho doctor ram a hot catheter up my dick" ?

Do I get to watch you do this to yourself? or was that a line on Nurse Jackie? :)

(I'm not sure how to find the show, though I'd like to find the episodes you were on)

Anyway, Lori and Ricardo, you guys seem to know a lot of creeps who think money's important enough to fake caring about someone or caring about what you do - as if that fakeness won't suck the life out of you, make you old before your time.

Find people who want your health and happiness, and keep them in your life, not those others... they're dangerous.

stg

I already picked out a girl I think would make a n...

2009-11-17T21:32:38.301-05:00

I already picked out a girl I think would make a nice wife for my boy, because she's just happy every time I see her. I figure if she can be that happy when she's 12 years old, he probably won't have to buy her a bunch of stuff to make her happy.

Lori these women simply don't get it. Money is a ...

2009-11-17T20:35:18.641-05:00

Lori these women simply don't get it. Money is a lot but not everything. The feel that good men are the ones with money and it just isn't so nor is it going to make them truly happy. So they cling to gifts to fill the void. Is it nice having nice things? Sure but what else? Don't they have aspirations? Dreams? Before I decided to get back into acting I was at a job where I needed to take xanax several times a day to get me through. I developed digestive issues and was constantly having panic attacks. People still don;t get why I am happy that that job let me go. I tell them that it made me very ill and I was becoming dependent on prescription drugs to make it through the day. They said, "so what" at least you were making good money. OK what if I stayed? What if I got worse health wise and what if I became addicted to things like xanax. I was already building up a tolerance to it. Would these so called friends come to visit me at a drug rehab center? Likely not!

Do not go with this man! No matter how much money he has, don't do it. You will hate yourself and cut off your empowerment at the knees. Some would say waitressing is not empowerment but that is not the focus, it is your writing. and if waitressing lets you get that writing in then it's not a waste. Keep going!

I totally get what you just wrote. I am in a post...

2009-11-17T16:06:44.054-05:00

I totally get what you just wrote. I am in a postition where if I choose to sell out I can stop waitressing, (i'm really an aspiring writer) I can date this man who is a pain in the ass but has loads of money which he thinks impresses me. The way he flaunts it repulses me. He is not politically or socially aware. He just happened to have a rich father. He is 53. I told him there are women lining up for "such a good catch"..He wants me. People always want what they can't have. I could not be with a man who lacks intelligence, no matter how wealthy. Of course all my stepford wife like women I know tell my I am crazy..

Grant I am afraid. Very afraid. Shawna - Thank y...

2009-11-17T01:57:09.807-05:00

Grant I am afraid. Very afraid.

Shawna - Thank you. Parents seem to think that more money = happiness and a better life for their kids and that it will fix everything. Even if that means taking a job you HATE. Sure they want you to do well but sometimes they fail to see that being well isn't always with the big job with big pay.

K9 - Thanks. You know what we have? the illusions of security and permanence in the things I was speaking of and none of that is a given as life and this damned recession has shown us. And big applause to you for chasing what you want. It takes bravery and is NOT easy. Lots of sacrifice but I think it will make us better people in the end.

Mitzi - You are just full of interesting factoids. Stepford wives strap their husbands down but only emotionally.

I worked retail before and my lord how I hated it.

Dawn - I will keep at it.

SJ That would be cool but I am earing alot of bad stuff about actors getting by in LA at the moment. Survival jobs between gigs are almost impossible to find and getting around from audition to audition is just murder. LA is too spread out. I suppose eventually I will have to go there but not before I exhaust every opportunity in NYC.

ThomasI have been on the receiving end of these silly conversations also and it's as if they expect me to wither in the false grandeur of it all but I don't. this will then set them off on a crusade of sorts because everyone is supposed to want what they have so they begin beating me about the head and body with it. Assertion that I am a shallow person and irresponsible or selfish. It drives them up the wall that I show no inclination to have what they have. they don't get it.

and yes, fuck them, you make movies and that's not something everyone can say. They people will label you as exciting in a few years when they are bored of pushing paper.

Terra - Right on sister!!!

Tracey - YES! And how awful would it be to chose the "stable" path and then regret it later in life. No, I must take the risk.

I completely agree with your sentiment - 'to hell ...

2009-11-17T00:42:26.126-05:00

I completely agree with your sentiment - 'to hell with stability'. There will always be bills at the door wanting to be paid, but much better to follow your dreams rather than lock yourself into a future of unhappiness and unfulfilled passions...

Yeah, don't conform to the average, Travel around ...

2009-11-17T00:23:57.662-05:00

Yeah, don't conform to the average,
Travel around in a carriage.
Wear flip flops in winter,
And hang out with a sprinter.
;)

Never surrender. I'm 30 this year and every time...

2009-11-16T19:52:53.335-05:00

Never surrender.

I'm 30 this year and every time I hear from a former classmate or college drinking buddy that wants to preen about their marriage, their car, their kids, their new house or any of the other trappings of 'adulthood,' with the unspoken assertion that I have none of these things, all I want to say to them is "Fuck you. I make movies."

And that's all there is to it.

You should have moved to LA lot of studios there a...

2009-11-16T13:37:04.895-05:00

You should have moved to LA lot of studios there and I would have taken the train down to hang with you.

I agree with you on the post. You just left out the part when you both start cheating.

Good for you, Ricardo. I wish you success. :-)

2009-11-16T11:35:27.693-05:00

Good for you, Ricardo. I wish you success. :-)

Having a rod inserted in the urethra is called 'so...

2009-11-15T23:21:07.873-05:00

Having a rod inserted in the urethra is called 'sounds' for some bizarre reason, perhaps because it involves plumbing depths, like sonar that reads sounds from below? I don't think the Stepford wives ever strap their husbands down and administer sounds, but you never know what goes on behind those picket fences.

Well now Ricardo, you told me to keep on with the day job if it pays the bills - but I can't return the same advice. Just take a look at that scene from 'Don't Mess With the Zohan' set in the electronics store ... retail is the "dream-killer" - don't do it.

with art, sometimes the last man standing takes th...

2009-11-15T19:57:40.352-05:00

with art, sometimes the last man standing takes the prize. pressure builds and many give up for all the reasons you state. security is an idea not a reality: think of all the cell phone pushers who lost their ass this past year. 401K's are half of what they were; playing it safe has never been a more raw deal. this is the best time ever to do your art and when you step out in faith the road rises to meet you. i wouldnt trade money for the freedom of how my life is spent for anything. and i didnt. which means i live more days apart from my husband than with. i do love him. but i chose a different life for myself and there you have it.

grant: is that the big chicken? whats your 20 solider?

I had fun reading your post but I am also thinking...

2009-11-15T14:32:33.608-05:00

Hearing you so loud and clear. Go with the choice ...

2009-11-15T07:19:15.914-05:00

Hearing you so loud and clear. Go with the choice where you feel you can make the most positive impact with your life. It looks and is risky but I think the long term rewards are great.

I've had a similar situation in the past few weeks, one of the big pharma companies put me through three stages of interviews for a position in the medical writing department. The position comes with financial security, pharma ladder climbing opportunities, and solid benefits, but the clincher is it's not what I want to do with my life. I'm withdrawing my interest.

Parental pressure has been huge and almost unbearable because they think that it will lead me to better pay and maybe a transfer back to north america. I want neither.

I'm hoping for you that you'll soon be able to pay all your bills and do it as a full time actor, so they'll be no reason for you to entertain notions of working as a cell phone salesmen instead of following your dreams.

Come...join us...don't be afraid.

2009-11-15T05:33:03.870-05:00

Come...join us...don't be afraid.

Nurse I may have to pick this book up.

2009-11-15T04:23:39.909-05:00

Nurse I may have to pick this book up.

Revolutionary Road was a great film but an even be...

2009-11-15T04:17:04.679-05:00

Revolutionary Road was a great film but an even better book.... read it and you'll wonder why anyone ever gets married and has children

Little Red - I was wondering where you were. I wil...

2009-11-15T00:26:20.227-05:00

Little Red - I was wondering where you were. I will check it out. I am thrilled you can clearly see that this is NOT me as it seems there are too many people here who can not.

Leah - Revolutionary Road. What a wonderful comparison! that is right on the money. Yes I guess I am living the dream but it does feel like a nightmare sometimes.

Whitmist - I do not but you know here in CT and other places as well there are many that do and there are even more Stepford wives in training waiting to strike and shake the life out of you with great looks and mediocre sexual techniques. They're everywhere!!!

Foam depending on how that guys deal is worked I bet e's making a nice hunk of cash on those ads. Those are funny.

STG - Secret? No it's no secret, they are all VERY good looking but the get ups they are in have got to go. that is NOT attractive.

You know, I wonder how hard it would be to flip chicks like this since most of them shunned me when they were on the prowl but now see me as "exciting" since the newlywed glow has worn off. That does happen. But I don't bother because honestly, and this sounds harsh, ut they bore me. They're too easy to figure out, they all fit the same logic pattern of competing with he neighbors in terms of amassing material wealth and pumping out babies. It's so hollow. I'd psycho doctor ram a hot catheter up my dick. Traumatic, but more interesting.

You could go undercover into the Stepford Wives ne...

2009-11-14T23:53:40.896-05:00

You could go undercover into the Stepford Wives neighbourhood near where you live and try to convert them to your way of thinking... be an evangelist!

Might even get laid a time or two... spreading your er, 'seeds' or pearls of wisdom changing their present.

You could change the world. :)

(I had much more serious commentary to put forth, but like this nonsense better. Hope you've had a good day, love to hear your opinions.)

stg

But do you secretly think those women in the photo...

2009-11-14T23:42:12.787-05:00

But do you secretly think those women in the photo you posted are good-looking? :)

stg