Motivation is down to zero, anger is up and it won't stop raining outside. Went out last night to my regular watering hole and probed about getting into the business with one of the employees and a couple of the wait staff. Seems doable. Just have to keep applying. Spent more than I should have but I got hungry. I shouldn't be doing that. Have to tighten the belt.
Reading up on the situation in Iran. Looks like the government is going to gun down the protesters to keep their bullshit regime in place. Part of me wants to be shocked but the rest me says this is par for the course. It's all a tragedy, really. There's also a part of me that wonders if the people that do want change are the same people who openly chant "Death to America, Death to Britain, Death to Israel" when they gather for "prayers." If that's the case then karma has come back for you and your revolution. If not, stand up and fight for change. Take your country back and lets be friends. The current morons in charge are ruining the vibe.
Talked to a guy who apparently knows someone at a film company and asked to see one of my screenplays. I sent him a PDF of it. Not expecting it to go anywhere but what the hell? Can't win if you don't play.
I have yet to precisely pinpoint where the bitterness is coming from but it's great
for the writing. Perhaps I should strive for this to be the look I usually wear. I thought it might have been the whole father's day thing, but really I didn't even recall it until much later in the day. Someone said something about it over the TV. YES TELEVISON! There I go again watching that evil, evil device. It's Videodrome all over again. If only there were a Deborah Harry like babe to go along with me in the saga. I can do without experiencing the other stuff in that film, but it was a damn good movie overall if you dig David Cronenberg. He's one of my heroes actually. Perhaps all of this angst will culminate in another screenplay or some other artistic endeavor. Bitterness can be used productively if you're smart about it.Listening to Broken by UNKLE which is a damn good band that I've grown quite fond of over the years. Seems to fit the mood.
As for everything else, damn it all!! See? Told you I was bitter.
